Future: Pending

James is scheduled to take the LSAT for the second time at the end of this month. He took the test for the first time in June. We had high hopes for his score, and were very surprised at the score he received, which was several points lower that he'd been anticipating. Much to his chagrin, James learned later that he had missed 2 full pages of questions. He thought he had been at the end of the section, and simply didn't turn the page. If he had answered those questions correctly, his score would have been significantly higher.

At that point, James seriously considered just taking the score he got. We had been looking at BYU's law school as our main option, and the score he got on the first LSAT definitely would have sufficed for applying to BYU. Plus, preparing to take an LSAT is a lot of work! But I pressured him to take the test again. If he could get a higher score, I felt that he should do so. It would open a lot more doors, and hopefully increase our chances at scholarship money.

Somewhat reluctantly, James agreed to take the test again, at the end of September. To prepare, he has been taking practice tests twice a week. And he has been scoring well--remarkably well. The scores that he's been getting on the practice tests would basically mean that James could get into any law school in the country. After getting a handful of these high scores (all of them higher than what we'd even hoped he would get the first time around), James started seriously considering the possibility of going to a Top 14 school instead of staying at BYU.

We've spent the summer daydreaming about law school. We spent a family home evening comparing the pros and cons of different schools, to narrow down which ones James will apply to. (We compared everything we could think of: tuition, program ranking, likelihood of scholarships, cost of living, crime rates, distance from a temple, and more...)

It all hinges on this LSAT. At this level, the difference in a single point influences James's likelihood of acceptance and how much scholarship money he can get. And with tuition upward of $50,000 a year at the Top 14 law schools, the amount of scholarship money he gets will make a huge difference for us.

Of course, James will still be applying to BYU. But it's definitely become the 'back up' school, and not the top choice like it once was. My James is ambitious (a trait that I value highly!) and with the possibility before him of attending a top-tier school, attending BYU seems like settling for less than his potential.

The idea of moving across the country is both terrifying and electrifying. On the one hand, it seems like a grand adventure! So many new experiences to have, new people to meet, new things to see and do. But on the other hand, I am heartbroken at the thought of leaving my family, our friends, our beautiful home, and our taekwondo school that is such an intrinsic part of our lives. I am worried about moving somewhere with no built-in support system, like I have here. That part of me wishes that we could stay here! But then I ask, is that in the best interest of my husband and our family? So many questions that have no immediate answer.

So for the next few months, our future is pending. First we have to get James's next LSAT score. Then get through applications, which is an adventure and a half. And then...the wait. That will be the worst part, I think! Waiting for acceptances, and then trying to navigate getting scholarship money--we hope! And then I suspect it will all come down to fervent prayer as we seek the Lord's guidance on where He would have us go. And so, for now, we prepare and we wait.